… Polo

Last week I met a seafarer from Poland, and on the way to Best Buy, we hit it off talking about cars.  He wished he could buy a Dodge Charger and ship it back to his home. We talked gas prices and speeding tickets and the differences between our education systems. And the whole time I was making different attempts at pronouncing his name. I tried Micha, Malkoo, Malcho… Every time he politely tried to correct me, and every time I tried to mimic the phlegm production in the middle of his name.

We got back to the center from our trip to Best Buy, and we sat at one of the tables across from our computers. I offered him a cup of coffee. He passed, but I needed some. When I got back with my coffee, I asked him, “Why do you do what you do?”

… He didn’t understand my poorly worded query, so I tried again.

“Working on the ships. Why do you do that?”

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I’ve found that asking “why?” questions, after you’ve broken the initial awkward iceberg with someone, can help quickly take the conversation to a deeper level. It gets at motivations and subtext in a way that ‘when’ ‘where’ and ‘how’ can’t.

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He talked about his need to make money, but he quickly began to talk about his relationship with his girlfriend, and how much she meant to him. He talked about how this job allowed him to spend his off months with her and how he loved spending so many long days free to enjoy her company. He hoped they would get married soon.

It’s amazing how Love connects us and molds us and shapes us.  If there were nothing else to connect my Polish friend and I, the desire to love and have that love returned is something that I believe connects us all. We want to feel desired and cared for. We want purpose and meaning. We want adventure and beauty. We want to change the world. Doesn’t Love give us all of those things and more?

Despite his rejection of religion and resistance to talking about God, I could tell that there was a deep longing in him, as there is in myself, to get to know Love and the nature of it. We talked for quite a while.

Finally, towards the end of our deep conversation about love, and life, and why bad things happen to people, I took one more failed attempt at his name, and he said, “No, Marco! Marco! Like Marco Polo!!” ,and we both laughed loudly at the embarrassingly long time it took me understand “Marco!”

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God is Love, and that Love is revealed in Christ. I would ask that those who read this would pray that God would continue to open Marco’s heart to the Love being offered through Jesus Christ, and I pray for more opportunities to discuss the deep, real truths of life with those who we serve.

-grace and peace


61.

A couple of weeks ago I made a few new friends at Global Maritime who loved to play pool. After playing a couple of games with them, they decided to teach me a new game, which they called 61. It was totally new to me, and I’m still not sure that they weren’t making up some of the rules as they went, but it was a great time. It took me a while to catch on, but eventually I even won a game!

Later in the evening before we were about to head back to their ship, I asked one of my new friends about his family, and he began to tell me about his two little girls and about how his wife was struggling to keep up with them while he was away. He had bought the older one a lap top for doing her homework at Best Buy earlier that day.

I asked him if it would be alright if I prayed for them, and he said of course. So together we prayed for his family, for their strength and unity as he was away. I was reminded to pray for all of our seafarers and their families. Often times their work is the best way to provide for their families monetarily, but nothing can make up for the lack of a father’s presence. So, I would ask that those who read this pray for the families of our seafaring friends, and specifically that in the absence of their earthly fathers, that our heavenly Father would be particularly present and tangible to the families in the times of their absence, providing the peace and comfort only God can provide.

I was then handily thumped in one last game of pool.

-grace and peace


MLK.

This past monday was Martin Luther King, Jr. day, and it is one of my favorite traditions that the saturday before would be a day of service to honor the clergyman, activist, and non-violent leader of the civil rights movement. The YAVs took an opportunity to serve at a food bank which is operated by Jefferson Presbyterian Church.

It was a really great morning. Personally, I enjoyed the company much more that the work as my job was to hang out at the NyQuil table and see that each family only took one. So, as you can guess, I quickly found other ways to amuse myself such as finding creative ways to arrange the bottles and having a dance off with a little girl. Though our jobs were not strenuous, we gladly helped oversee the distribution of food and met so many kind and caring people. It was really encouraging to be a part of actively meeting the needs of the vulnerable in our community, something I believe Dr.  King would be proud of.

Sadly, on Martin Luther King, Jr. day itself, 5 people were shot on MLK Boulevard in New Orleans, and as I headed home from the port that night I thought of the many ways that Dr. King’s dream is still a dream, a point in the future, drawing those of us who believe his message forward.

As New Orleans YAVs, We live in a city where a  young man has a worse chance of surviving than in Afghanistan according to the mayor. We live in a state that is in the top ten in executions per capita. We live in a state that imprisons more people per capita than any in our country. We live in a nation where the people who are faced with taking the brunt of these and many other disproportionatetly distributed atrocities are African American.  Approximately half of the US citizens imprisoned today are African American, more than were enslaved before the Civil War.

So this weekend I was encouraged to see the good that can come from a caring community, but I pray, as I hope you will, for the day when Dr. King’s dream would come true. In fact, that beyond Dr. King’s dream, that God’s kingdom would come, on earth as it is in heaven. Amen.

-grace and peace


Barbecue.

Two weeks ago I had a beautiful and humbling experience, and I thought I would share.

I was at Global Maritime and I had just done a routine pick up from a ship to run some of the crew to Wal-Mart. As I was dropping off the first contingent and heading back to the center, a few of the crew mentioned wanting some good food, something they couldn’t get on the boat. I felt their pain and wanted to help.

Flashback with me to the summer of 2005.

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I am sitting in the hot sun in the parking lot of a high school somewhere I’ve never been before and will probably never return to. I have just eaten a slimy, over dressed salad and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for the bajillionth time.

I’m a member of the Carolina Crown Drum and Bugle corps and we have been touring the country competing against other corps. We sleep in busses and on gym floors and our food comes from an 18 wheeler that has been converted into a kitchen and follows us around.

As you could expect, we eat very similar, overly processed food every day.

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So, having some respect and understanding of the frustrations of repetitive processed foods, I know I have to hook these gentlemen up with some decent local fare.

I droped off the rest of the crew with Jonathan at the center, and told these hungry fellows to come with me. We went to Magazine to get some gas, and I told them that some of the best restaurants in the city were on this very street.

As we walked down Magazine, we chatted about the similarities and differences between their home country of the Philipines and our home here in New Orleans. We talked about parks, schools, family and sports. Eventually, the topic got back around to their life on the ship. They told me how bad their cook was and how he only served dried fish and rice, and I told them that in New Orleans they could have Pizza or Tacos or Vietnamese or Indian, but nothing really sounded perfect.

Then, one of the crew spotted Saucy’s. He asked me what it was and I told him it was a barbecue place. They looked around at each other and came to a silent consensus that this was place. I was elated.

We sat down and the waitress was very patient and kind as they ordered their enormous plates, each with two meats and two sides. I ordered an alligator po’ boy, and the crew were very amused that I was going to be eating alligator.

The food came, and I asked if I could bless the meal.

In that prayer, God opened my eyes and heart to the smallness of the world and the heavenly communion that was before us.

I would ask that those who read this might pray for my heart to be continually open to the moving of God’s love in these relationships, strengthened by the beauty of these shared moments.

-grace and peace


Whirlwind.

I like the word whirlwind.

It has an onomatopoetic quality as it swirls with breath. There’s a free-ness and chaos to it that makes it especially beautiful. Say it with me:

Whirlwind.

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My past few weeks have been a whirlwind: a chaotic restructuring of almost everything rooted in my life. My journey to The Crescent City was interrupted by Hurricane Isaac, which caused serious devastation in South Louisiana (one of my co-workers at Global Maritime Ministries lost his home). My family vacation was extended, and my orientation time with my housemates was furious and brief. I began work four days after arriving only to be overwhelmed with how right it feels for me to be here in New Orleans.

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I love meeting new people, and it seems that both of my placements will be heavy in the “people meeting” department.

On Tulane:

I have had a couple of weeks learning and getting settled into the rhythm of my time with Rev. Jennie Thomas at Tulane Medical Center.  I can say for certain that my time as a chaplain here will be challenging and energizing. I am excited at the possibility of making so many new acquaintances and building relationships with the staff and patients.

I have my name badge, and I’ve learned what all the codes mean; it seems that they have one for everything! (Code pink is for a stolen baby . . . ) I have shadowed Jennie for a couple of days, read some books and handouts, and had some discussions on boundaries and being a healing presence.  I am nervous about meeting with people individually, but I am confident that God has volumes to reveal to me through my time at the hospital.

On Global Maritime:

Despite the fact that I am giving up most of my weeknights, I have really enjoyed working with Global Maritime Ministries so far. I get to do some of my favorite things as part of my job: driving a van, playing pool and ping pong, and talking to people with amazingly diverse backgrounds! At the center we have phone cards, postage, and toiletries. We also taxi the seafarers to run errands. My favorite trip so far was to the mall where all the fellows came out with Victoria’s Secret bags to send back to their wives.  It is a relaxed atmosphere and a much needed ministry, and I am blessed to be a part.

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I would ask that as I continue to root myself into my place in this robustly cultured city, you would pray for guidance, patience, and clear vision as I seek to be a healing presence to all the new faces I will meet. Please pray for my housemates Nate, Valentina, Elizabeth, and Henry as well; that they would find peace and meaning in their new roles, and that God would begin the work of knitting us into a community that loves and encourages one another in the work that God has for us here in New Orleans.

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an address for letters, encouragements, or financial support:

8124 Zimpel St.

New Orleans, LA 70118

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Thank you so much for reading!

-grace and peace


What is a city but the people?

This past weekend was far more difficult and emotional for me than I expected.

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In retrospect, I think I believed that since God has given me such peace and assurance about my place in New Orleans that leaving Denver would be peaceful and simple. However, as I get closer to my twelve o’clock departure tomorrow, I realize that there really is no change without pain.

With every change there is loss. There is something we used to have, people we will miss, and a norm that has become a comfort to us even when we knew it was temporary.

Things will never be the same, and as overjoyed as I am to begin the next part of my journey (so excited I can’t even begin), leaving is a painful eye-opening to the many blessings I have had here in Denver.

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For starters, the people I was able to work with at DenUM have been such great teachers and friends. I can’t even tell you how much I’ve learned about the social work setting. Having no experience coming into this year, It seemed like a never ending flow of new ideas and information, and yet I enjoyed the learning and growing that came from such a multi-faceted position. And honestly, they’re just great people. People who care and laugh and work hard. I pray some of their spirit has rubbed off on me.

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And then there was my Blues Prayers family.

My mentor and friend, Vern Rempel, is the Senior Pastor First Mennonite Church of Denver. He invited me to participate in a new worship service where we would play music in the folk, blues, and jazz styles and offer brief reflections. This service became one of the times I looked forward to every week. It’s challenged me spiritually and musically, and I am so grateful to Vern for allowing me to speak several times throughout the year.

It has been such an honor to play with my incredible musician friends Tony and Taylor, and the few and steady attendees of Blues Prayers have been so kind and supportive. They have been a steady flow of creativity, gentleness, and hugs, and I will miss them immensely.

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As if my relationship with Blues Prayers wasn’t enough, every Sunday evening I was blessed to attend Bloom.

Bloom’s church model and honest, insightful teaching filled my soul, reminding me each week who I was and centering me to mystery and beauty of Christ. The friendships I made through house church and the frisbee group I started will never be forgotten, and I hope to keep in touch as so many of them are going to do great things. I know it.

I will continue to listen to the teachings by Andrew Arndt on podcast, and Bloom will always be a significant part of my spiritual journey.

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Finally, there isn’t room on the internet for the countless things the Dwell program has done for me, but what I will miss most is the people.

I already miss Maegen, Johanna, Meg and Sarah. Their lights in my life have shone into places I couldn’t have seen otherwise. They are living proof that knowing yourself takes place in the pervasive light of community as much as it does in your own heart.

Glenn Balzer and his family have been an awesome influence and sounding board for me this year. In the conversations and time we’ve had together, they have encouraged and loved those of us in the Dwell house and shown us the beautiful and difficult things a family can do when committed to Christ, to loving each other, and to living Love into the community around them.

Antonio Lucero and his family have been incredible. In them I have seen so much generosity, openness, and kindness. I aspire to be so open and generous as a way of taking their spirit with me. Antonio has given of himself and his time to the Dwellers freely, and I hope that his spontaneity and optimism have sparked those parts in all of us. He has become a true and trusted friend that I hope to keep.

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Its a bright and hopeful pain I have in leaving this place, knowing the good it’s done for me and the people it’s brought me to will be a part of me as I go.

I would ask that those reading this would pray for safe travel and God’s comfort as I make this next step into my tiny part of God’s story, and that he would continue to reveal to me the gifts and lessons from Denver.

-grace and peace


cultivation

Last Tuesday was our final community day together.

It was a beautiful day, and we had a reflection time that involved walking through our city in silence. We were to take in the sights, sounds, and smells and reflect on our city and our community.

As I walked through the different parts of town -the neighborhood, the art district, the business district, and lower downtown- I thought about what made them different. What makes one part of town nicer than the other? What keeps the paint pristine in one part of town and peeling in another? Why is the sidewalk on this block smooth and flat while one block over it rises and falls, being reclaimed by weeds and grass?

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It seems to me that humans cannot exist anywhere without affecting their surroundings, for better or for worse.

There is no staying the same.

If we give our energies to something we can improve it or maintain it, but if we ignore it deterioration and decomposition sets in. It forces us to cultivate the things we care about. To weed our gardens and paint our walls. To dust our shelves and change the oil in our cars. To make phone calls to our friends and practice our instruments.

This year I’ve learned how directly this applies to my spiritual life.

My soul needs attention and nourishment; when I ignore it I can feel it in my heart, and I can see it in my relationships.

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As I walked along I thought about Denver, and I thought about my friends and family, and I thought about our nation and our world. What kinds of things are we cultivating? Are our words giving love and nourishment, or judgement and separation?

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If I have the gift of prophesy and can understand all mysteries and knowledge, and If I have faith enough to move the mountains, but have not love I am nothing. (1 Cor. 13:2)

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and being nothing is what leaves room for the ruin of the things we care about most.

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I pray that we would put our energies into the things that build up, heal, and reconcile. May our words and actions speak love and community into the world, because anything else tears down and separates.

-grace and peace


poem.

We are weaned from our timidity
In the flush of love’s light
we dare be brave
And suddenly we see
that love costs all we are
and will ever be.
Yet it is only love
which sets us free.
― Maya Angelou


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Reblogged from The Blog of Andrew Arndt:

Last night's shooting in Aurora leaves us vacillating in our souls between numbness and horror, and grasping for meaning; for we are "meaning makers", we human beings, and so it is that "senseless tragedy" is particularly hard for us to swallow.  We feel that something must be done or said to put it all in perspective.

And it is just there that we are likely to go wrong, for the wise writer of Ecclesiastes says:

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I'm heartbroken over this tragedy. The Denver Dwellers are okay, but prayers are appreciated for our city and all those affected, directly or indirectly. These are some thoughts on response to tragedy that I would encourage everyone to read.
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Boxes

Reblogged from Glenn Balzer:

The other day at our Atlanta board meeting the chair asked each of us to share how we experience the face of God.   This is one of those questions that I should be ready to answer in an instant; after all, it is the tagline to the program where I have been working for most of my adult life.  As I was listening to the reflections of other board members my mind kept going back to when I first started working for DOOR.

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Wise thoughts from a wise man.
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